"Things I Don’t Understand/ Questions"
That little voice in your head,
The one that keeps your company in a lonely room
Your minds self expression
Only you are privy to its words
It belongs only to you
Yet everyone has their own
Unique but also one in a trillion, trite.
It sounds exactly as you do when you allow these words to manifest into the physical realm of being
Did we develop these specific intonations of our own voices inside our own minds? So much so that we’ve grown accustomed to it sounding as our own voices?
Or did we always sound this way to ourselves from our very inception? The world only able to hear our mind’s voice when we so choose?
What came first?
Our ability to think without words through this small voice?
Or was it our innate ability to learn language to express these things we feel?
Well Im using this voice right now, to express to you how I feel and what I think. It’s my only channel to the outside world.
What exists beyond what I can understand?
I would really love to know the answers to these enigmas that my human companions can relate to, but cannot understand themselves.
When I close my eyes I’m all that I hear, the loudest thing in my head.
Im closest to myself then.
I hear all my fears and all my joys.
All my insecurities and shortcomings.
No one can reach me here if I only listen to myself.
They can’t hear my inner most thoughts nor can they tarnish my hopes and aspirations here.
A secret place for just me, and me alone.
The translation from my inner voice to my physical speech is a tool through which I have a medium to express myself to the world.
The world only gets to know what I choose it to know
Sadly this can be the flaw with my world.
With everyone harnessing a different soul
Some choose the route of dishonesty,
Using their own inner voices to change the truth only his/her mind truly knows
Is it a manifestation of my conscious, speaking to me with the words of my mind?
What happens when I slowly drift away from my conscious, into the realm of dreams?
I don’t hear my conscious, my inner voice that speaks to me.
If I can’t hear myself how do I construct worlds which parallel the one in which I live?
Or do I speak to myself there as well?
Only in a way that is less clear than the voice I hear in my conscious state?
So many mysteries still lie within the human mind.
What am I capable of?
What is my full potential?
If I lie closer to myself, escape to the darkness beyond my eyes, can I see more clearly who I’m supposed to be?